An “A-HA” Moment

I woke up one day and it just hit me

That maybe this is the last day

This day will never come back

And so ignorantly

I am never really living it I am never present

I am just like a time-anticipating machine

Looking so anxiously forward

To the next thing, the next move, the next day It’s like

I am always running after a dream

I can never catch

And Just by only thinking of that

I felt so tired emotionally

So, drained and so empty all at the same time and then I decided!

This has to stop!

’Cause I’ll die and I won’t event realise it

So, I made a bet with myself to change

And to show all my cards

With no fear

And no more soul-consuming second guessing

I started analysing my dayI thought all the little chores

I had to do during the day

How boring they are and with no purpose

And I asked myself, how can I give meaning to this?

What really defines a purpose?

There must be a way since

I am the operating power of my reality

And I got up, I got dressed up with my favourite little black dress

And I wore my favourite pair of shoes

Always hidden in the back of the closet for a special occasion

Completely inattentive of the fact that waking up each dayIs a special occasion

And I put my makeup on

And I did my hair

And I did my laundry looking like a movie star and then like a shift happened

And the whole world starting looking like a stage

and my trivial tasks weren’t chores anymore but simply...

an act that it could be fun ...

in the NOW!